something about this just makes me feel old.
'do you hear? i'm consoling you.'you had this image of God the beneficent creator living in a city in the sky like lando in the empire strikes back. you used to rent the tape from the library. the essence of religion was father's distaste for the term 'x-mas' and jesus, mary and joseph like mother always said, and once when you were little she talked to you about heaven. you talked to God until you were seventeen, then you started talking to chaucer. neither talked back, but you found you had more to say to God, the god who became more and more distant as the years went by, guarded by absurdity in a way roughly analogous to the funny uniforms of the swiss guard around the pope. it became easier to be more hands-off, to relate more to the one you had less to say to. why would you want to know god once you've seen some of the world you used to think was good? the hat is the pope's last line of defence, really. if you weren't thrown by the guards that would get you. no way to take this guy seriously now.
-- jöns, the seventh seal
when the world ends, people are still feasting with each other, talking about how the world is about to end. life's current carries on just as before if the end comes suddenly. i lost track of this thought too.
previous posts
- i can't listen to the quiet, so i hum this mindles...
- (in a big world) little dreams count
- if i waited for lessons and true confessions, that...
- you only feel like going back to where there's no ...
- moorestown
- we are born without eyesight, we are born without sin
- thoughts only i could have, part xxi
- i click my heels, get the devils in line
- spring forward, fall back down
- year of meteors
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also me
- city lines magazine
- twitter (annus_mirabilis)
- ashley (almost a love song)
- kayleigh (i [verb] you)
- nicole (raise your hopeful voice)
- alli (what an odd-sized explosion.)
- haven kimmel's blog
- sara benincasa
- wonkette
- i blame the patriarchy
- who is ioz?
- a softer world
- toothpaste for dinner
- natalie dee
- married to the sea
- dinosaur comics
- xkcd
- terror island
- the perry bible fellowship
- cat and girl
- björk
- the decemberists
- the weakerthans
- sigur rós
- stephin merritt
- norfolk & western
- the essex green
- of montreal
- elephant 6
- arts&crafts
- laura veirs
- mary timony
- cbc
- alt weeklies
- al jazeera english
- george galloway
- marxists internet archive
- world socialist web site
- the pinky show
- quotidiana
- exit mundi
- the millennial abyss
- the revealer
- killing the buddha
- the brick testament
- colbert nation
- mcsweeney's internet tendency
- the brazen head
- iq infinity: the unknown james joyce
- ulysses by james joyce
- the leonard cohen files
- only revolutions
- luminarium
- geoffrey chaucer hath a blog
- haven kimmel
- purity of heart
- banana yoshimoto
- jeanette winterson
blogs
webcomics
music
news and political
curiosity, entertainery, and literary
about
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me: aspiring writer, 'music nerd,' seeker of beautiful moments, college student, armchair theologian, nominal quaker, 'the diet coke of emo with no caffeine,' eclectic left-winger, and generally someone who thinks about things too much.
this: unedited, uninhibited, and uninteresting thoughts, nebulous stream-of-consciousness ramblings of memory, inside jokes, obscure references, emotional paroxysms, and slices of life. sometimes there are pictures.
what people are saying about me
'...something entirely different from anybody i've ever known.'
- krystin
'...a nice boy.'
- laura
'...a maoist!'
- greg
'...elevate[s] emotional self-destructiveness to an art form.'
- greg
'...my favorite pixie.'
- lizzie
'...a damn good conversationalist.'
- kelly
'...blue-raspberry [pie]! or or maybe cranberry raisin.'
- becky
'i feel like a wide eyed kid in the socialist candy store...and [he's] the clerk.'
- christine
'...far too sensible and perceptive to be straight.'
- catherine
'...not british.'
- catherine
'...would have made a good medieval monk. one of the non-crooked ones.'
- catherine
'...should have been born a dolphin.'
- elizabeth
ATOM 0.3
'life was just a series of things i'd read about coming true.'
-- michelle tea, the chelsea whistle
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