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those furious affections followed you

0 comments Published 6.30.2008 by matt o.

'i'm pretty sure it was her who killed my imagination.'

-- kayleigh, on a sixth grade teacher. nonchalantly.

a variety of stories on that theme

0 comments Published 6.24.2008 by matt o.

'. . . and that the records of past Dispensations, and their revelations, can be understood and interpreted aright only by means of a present living revelation; we therefore feel ourselves untrammeled by the letter of yesterday, and write and express our views in accordance with the increasing light of to-day. . .'

-- shakers compendium, august, 1858.

coming and going on easy terms

0 comments Published 6.23.2008 by matt o.

this is going to seem like simple adolescent philosophy-- the loosest definition of each of those words.

so, maybe it's not worth overthinking any of this. people go, and it's best to let them. you can't change any of it, and any effort you make to get someone to stay or make someone go more quickly is undue meddling in the infinite now of moments you can enjoy while they are there. i forget that too often, seeking for a sort of personal sustainability that should not need to exist for happiness to flourish. happiness does not need weeks of sunshine and a constantly soaked root to finally have a chance to peek out, just when it seems safe; i should finally expand my understanding of completed past events as worthwhile, even though they are no longer here, to enjoying the fleeting, the eternity contained in the now. now, in the deep and down, says old jimmy eat world that was such a comfort in high school. think about that for a second. clarity, like the name of the album. today has depth.

maren knocks off in a few words of action so much of my past thinking: life is too short, people go away, and the last thing we want to do is cry.... so that is why we are celebrating and having a kick ass time!! for a moment it seems like ignoring a problem; the next, living.

lolpossum

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my first lolwhatever effort, using kayleigh's photo of the possum which graced the trash the day i was moving:

of course everyone goes crazy over such and such and such

0 comments Published 6.22.2008 by matt o.

two excerpts:

'"the world," he tells his son, "is full of people who never knew what hit 'em, their lives are over before they wake up."'

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'history. the more of it you have the more you have to live it. after a little while there gets to be too much of it to memorize and maybe that's when empires start to decline.'

-- john updike, rabbit is rich

saltbreakers

0 comments Published 6.19.2008 by matt o.

a moment the other day where salem state seemed almost as it was when it was given to me those long few years ago. all that i needed was somerset maugham and the ocean. walking from peabody lot i at first thought how this place had seemed so vast; then it was small, cozy; then broken; and, finally, just sad.

they'll say anything

0 comments Published 6.14.2008 by matt o.

'well, it's a dutch oven, and the french are toast!'

-- actual commentary at the end of a euro 2008 soccer match (france vs. the netherlands)

slow nerve action

0 comments Published 6.11.2008 by matt o.

day after day, only a few of them, but seeming like many, in a hot undecorated room. summer evenings at least are good, that pale glow in the sky, the heat broken: driving with headlights on and watching the lighted signs of stores, knowing that sunset is still a long way off.

untitled

0 comments Published 6.10.2008 by matt o.

'your heart's desire is to be told some mystery. the mystery is that there is no mystery.'

-- cormac mccarthy, blood meridian, or, the evening redness in the west

in which our hero dodges bullets and swords

0 comments Published 6.07.2008 by matt o.

if there's a lifetime quota for the amount of times i can stumble across old, almost unrecognisable writing and have one of those transcendental moments that occur, when i can separate out the continuities of myself and know how i thought before a certain moment and after, i'm quickly approaching it.

being there

0 comments Published 6.02.2008 by matt o.

'but you can't ever live in the place you dream about, the town you long for. you can't go there, and i don't mean like thomas wolfe or whatever, i mean that moment you become conscious of your desire, and then fulfill it, it evaporates.'

-- haven kimmel, the solace of leaving early

sunday moment of my second favourite laura

0 comments Published 6.01.2008 by matt o.


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