something about this just makes me feel old.
that's something that bothers me this year, that the nature of finals time means everyone will be drifting on a different schedule around the school if they're around at all and taking their final leave at varying times. so many of those 'if i don't see you, merry christmas' moments, leaving people on all sides hanging, wondering, since the chance has been left open, if they will see these other people again before the holidays are fully upon us. and who will you see last?
i remember the way it was back in high school, how there was that last day before winter break and they had that volleyball tournament that emptied out classes, how we weren't supposed to wander or go to multiple lunches but everyone did, and how we'd find ourselves playing cards in some nearly-empty classroom or mingling in the band room with holiday cheer, how i'd be given christmas cards by kate and [i think] alli and be surprised that i'd been remembered enough for that. and how at the end of the day there would be that moment we'd be waiting for buses to arrive and the schoolday to end all sitting together somewhere, all feeling that sense of resignation and tiredness that comes with the knowledge that it was the last moment for everyone, and people would individually get up and say goodbye, best wishes, merry everything, see you all on the other side.
i remember the way it was back in high school, how there was that last day before winter break and they had that volleyball tournament that emptied out classes, how we weren't supposed to wander or go to multiple lunches but everyone did, and how we'd find ourselves playing cards in some nearly-empty classroom or mingling in the band room with holiday cheer, how i'd be given christmas cards by kate and [i think] alli and be surprised that i'd been remembered enough for that. and how at the end of the day there would be that moment we'd be waiting for buses to arrive and the schoolday to end all sitting together somewhere, all feeling that sense of resignation and tiredness that comes with the knowledge that it was the last moment for everyone, and people would individually get up and say goodbye, best wishes, merry everything, see you all on the other side.
previous posts
- reading day
- at least that's what we say we are doing
- we survived weather & climate
- the cartoon version of my father
- a winter talisman
- i'd forgotten what it really feels like
- saturday moment of ruthlessness
- hello december
- i buried my first victim when i was nineteen
- she stands in the luminous air and the night comes on
archives
- April 2006
- May 2006
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- August 2006
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also me
- city lines magazine
- twitter (annus_mirabilis)
- ashley (almost a love song)
- kayleigh (i [verb] you)
- nicole (raise your hopeful voice)
- alli (what an odd-sized explosion.)
- haven kimmel's blog
- sara benincasa
- wonkette
- i blame the patriarchy
- who is ioz?
- a softer world
- toothpaste for dinner
- natalie dee
- married to the sea
- dinosaur comics
- xkcd
- terror island
- the perry bible fellowship
- cat and girl
- björk
- the decemberists
- the weakerthans
- sigur rós
- stephin merritt
- norfolk & western
- the essex green
- of montreal
- elephant 6
- arts&crafts
- laura veirs
- mary timony
- cbc
- alt weeklies
- al jazeera english
- george galloway
- marxists internet archive
- world socialist web site
- the pinky show
- quotidiana
- exit mundi
- the millennial abyss
- the revealer
- killing the buddha
- the brick testament
- colbert nation
- mcsweeney's internet tendency
- the brazen head
- iq infinity: the unknown james joyce
- ulysses by james joyce
- the leonard cohen files
- only revolutions
- luminarium
- geoffrey chaucer hath a blog
- haven kimmel
- purity of heart
- banana yoshimoto
- jeanette winterson
blogs
webcomics
music
news and political
curiosity, entertainery, and literary
about
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me: aspiring writer, 'music nerd,' seeker of beautiful moments, college student, armchair theologian, nominal quaker, 'the diet coke of emo with no caffeine,' eclectic left-winger, and generally someone who thinks about things too much.
this: unedited, uninhibited, and uninteresting thoughts, nebulous stream-of-consciousness ramblings of memory, inside jokes, obscure references, emotional paroxysms, and slices of life. sometimes there are pictures.
what people are saying about me
'...something entirely different from anybody i've ever known.'
- krystin
'...a nice boy.'
- laura
'...a maoist!'
- greg
'...elevate[s] emotional self-destructiveness to an art form.'
- greg
'...my favorite pixie.'
- lizzie
'...a damn good conversationalist.'
- kelly
'...blue-raspberry [pie]! or or maybe cranberry raisin.'
- becky
'i feel like a wide eyed kid in the socialist candy store...and [he's] the clerk.'
- christine
'...far too sensible and perceptive to be straight.'
- catherine
'...not british.'
- catherine
'...would have made a good medieval monk. one of the non-crooked ones.'
- catherine
'...should have been born a dolphin.'
- elizabeth
ATOM 0.3
'life was just a series of things i'd read about coming true.'
-- michelle tea, the chelsea whistle
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