with my head spinning around

something about this just makes me feel old.

Published 10.22.2006 by matt o | E-mail this post

i used to think of salem this time of year from an aerial perspective, sitting in my room back in bowditch when no one else was around. i'd get lines like "city by the sea" in my mind while i tried to imagine the high-angle view of the landscape and the people moving about in harvest-time bustle amid fantastic leaves. i'd put on "the jeep song" by the dresden dolls for that girl group effect during the chorus, then usually skip ahead to "truce" and pick out the parts that seemed to have relevance to my own situation.

i like going downtown, it's a bit of a head-clearing experience while at the same time being the exact opposite. while demons of the past need to be cleansed, that work is never done as more are made daily, so it was a singularly interesting experience taking a walk down there with catherine this afternoon. life moves on and we're all so confused, aren't we? matherine, i'd forgotten about that one-- always searching for some imagined state where everything would be that much better, moving in and out of places, conversing on park benches and in the midst of large crowds, down streets and through open spaces, with small children charging at us and small dogs running in the distance. and a taunting toyish train that keeps passing back.

and i say things i shouldn't say that are all true, and what's the harm in true?