'one is pleased to see the bugs die in a fire even though one's house is burned down.'
-- kim il-sung
'i miss everyone. i can remember being young and feeling a thing and identifying it as homesickness, and then thinking well now that's odd, isn't it, because i was home, all the time. what on earth are we to make of that?'
-- david foster wallace, the broom of the system
'the life that went on in them seemed to me made up of evasions and negations . . . this guarded mode of existence was like living under a tyranny. people's speech, their voices, their very glances, became furtive and repressed. every individual taste, every natural appetite, was bridled by caution. the people asleep in those houses, i thought, tried to live like the mice in their own kitchens; to make no noise, to leave no trace, to slip over the surface of things in the dark. the growing piles of ashes and cinders in the back yards were the only evidence that the wasteful, consuming process of life went on at all.'
-- willa cather, my ántonia
'the book was very right, of course, so long as everyone started living by it at the same time.'
-- aleksandr solzhenitsyn, cancer ward
*
when i was ten, i thought my brother was god
he'd lie in bed and turn out the light with a fishing rod
i learned the names of all his football team
and i still remembered them when i was nineteen
strange the things that i remember still
shouts from the playground when i was home and ill
my sister taught me all that she learned there
when we grew up, we said, we'd share a flat somewhere
when i was seventeen, london meant oxford street
where i grew up, there were no factories
there was a school and shops and some fields and trees
rows of houses one by one appeared
i was born in one and lived there for eighteen years
then when i was nineteen, i thought the humber would be
the gateway from my little world into the real world
but, there is no real world
we live side by side, and sometimes collide
when i was seventeen, london meant oxford street
it was a little world
i grew up in a little world
-- everything but the girl, 'oxford street'
'in fact he was carried away by that mania of the storyteller, who never knows which stories are more beautiful--the ones that really happened and the evocation of which recalls a whole flow of hours past, of petty emotions, boredom, happiness, insecurity, vanity, and self-disgust, or those which are invented, and in which he cuts out a main pattern, and everything seems easy, then begins to vary it as he realizes more and more that he is describing again things that had happened or been understood in lived reality.
cosimo was still at the age when the desire to tell stories makes one want to live more, thinking one has not done enough living to recount, and so off he would go . . . and tell the folk of ombrosa new stories, which originally true, became, as he told them, invented, and from invented, true.'
-- italo calvino, the baron in the trees
hold fast to dreams
for if dreams flop
life is a boal of rice crispies
without the pop
by Jill
and some somewhat
less well known auther
named
Langston Hughes
Dear Jill, I was on the plain from Punta Cana
and practicing ciligraphy. I couldn't think of any
other poem except yours
love Nancy
Merry Christmas 1983
to Jim
love Andy
You're supposed to read this
on Christmas night in bed
after making the bed with
your new flannel sheets.
'i tell her that maps used to end, the world had edges and no one knew what was past them. i tell her she and i are standing on such an edge; all the rest of the map is blank parchment, and one sentence. beyond this point: monsters.'
-- haven kimmel, iodine
'as i get older, and nearer growing up, i often sit wondering here, and think how unfortunate it is for me that i can't reconcile you to home better than i am able to do. i don't know what other girls know. i can't play to you, or sing to you. i can't talk to you so as to lighten your mind, for i never see any amusing sights or read any amusing books that it would be a pleasure or a relief to you to talk about when you are tired.'
-- charles dickens, hard times
'and i asked myself about the present: how wide it was, how deep it was, how much was mine to keep.'
-- kurt vonnegut, slaughterhouse-five
you write carefully
sentence after sentence
to make your meaning clear
the meaning is
that you are dead
dead with hope
dead with spring
dead with the blurred hummingbird
dead with the longing
to shine again
in details of the past
-- leonard cohen, 'your death'
'it wasn't until he was about to die that for one moment he opened his eyes. o govinda, he sighed, the rain never stops, the dream never ends, maybe we screwed it all up. and he was gone.'
-- natasza goerke, 'siddhartha'
'i suppose most men would say, where has the time gone? but not me; i know where it has gone. ask any exile. he will tell you where the time has gone.'
-- john biguenet, the torturer's apprentice
'this sort of thing cannot make anybody happy, but it is a way of saying: "i wish you were happy."'
-- thomas merton, the seven storey mountain
-- michelle tea, the chelsea whistle